I am my beloved's, and his desire is toward me. Song of Solomon 7:10

I never would have thought that yet again You look at me.
Your eyes pierce through the walls I've built, the life I lead.
I thought that this was love to serve, to give my life
To those I meet, the needy, tossed about in strife.

That this was meant for You, to please Your very heart,
But for the love of God or love of man I played this part?
The question posed was like a lever pressing into locks condemned to rust
Painfully, searingly, with determined wrench, to open is a must!

The firm determined surge of strength I know will break those seals
and as the lid breaks open what kind of treasure Light reveals?
No treasure here, and shame arises as the gloom lets loose its slime
The hidden silt of things not cleansed, not handled for a while.

I would, if let, slam shut this stinking sight
His hand prevails, with all His strength and might
His voice impresses love towards my mind...
"Allow Me child, to show what I will find".....

"And have no fear, that seeing, I will then accuse.
I will transform the damaged life to one of use.
The sludge is what remains of things now past,
Of understandings from a childish mind, which shall not last".....

"Behold I've made a new creation out of you
And have called you for my purpose, sound and true.
Know, with conviction, you are my perfect choice
without your doing anything, but submitting to My voice".....

"And I will cleanse this vessel by the washing of My Word
and you will know My love in ways you've not yet heard.
No shame, but grace and mercy paid your debt
and you can rise again in strength to follow yet"....

" 'Beloved' - let Me whisper this, My name for you.
'Beloved' - nothing that you've done or even yet will do,
'Beloved' - I have drawn you in, to dwell with Me.
'Beloved' - this, My love for you, forever it will be.

That... I may speak boldly as I ought to speak. Ephesians 6:18-20

I don't know what your weekend was like but mine was a bit of a corker. I have a couple of friends who are going through it at the moment and I dedicated some time to them over the weekend. I went to a Desiring Truth Conference which was wonderful, all about the Lords love. You do need to check out the website sometime www.desiringtruth.org.uk you will not be disappointed. But on with the story......
I had the usual cooking, laundry shopping, my granddaughter called in, we were housing a dog for the weekend as a favour to another couple of friends, (in case you don't know I do have two of my own wandering around the place). I had emails to answer and a To Do list that is getting longer by the minute. To round off events my grandson rang this morning, listening to his struggles reduced me to tears!
Right now I am sat on my bed thinking I need a rest, or should I go back on those 'knock me out' pills? The answer came 'Just talk to Me'.

Ok - Lord, you know I have a bit of a dicky ticker, you know I have commitments, you know I have a responsibility to my family, you know I have a lengthening 'To Do list', you know I have......... Before another word popped out of my mouth He finished my sentence. 'You know I have ......... A Saviour'!

What does that mean? everything! I have a Saviour! He is my peace, He is my strength, He is my strong Deliverer, He is my 'I am' - the answer to it all!

 When Christ interrupts our flow of 'pity me's' with His 'I AM' ...... Then there is nothing more to say except Hallelujah!